Morning banana heads! I am SO excited that I have a full day today.. and a half day tomorrow standing between my .. and a gloriously long weekend. Oh hell yes!
Thanks so much for all the lovin’ on my eats. For those of you who are considering giving WIAW a try.. DO IT! 🙂
A couple of weeks ago, I introduced you to a series, Throwback Thursday – where I brought you through my senior year of college … primarily through pictures, with some words scattered here and there. I am going to bring you back even further – to the latter years in high school – through pictures.. words.. all that good stuff.
First – let me give you a little background info – I went to a catholic high school that was about 20 minutes away from my house. I had the choice of going to the public high school in my town -but opted to go the HC for many reasons.
- First off – while I loved the group of friends I had made in middle school – there were some people who were just downright mean – and I wasn’t sure I wanted to go through high school with them
- Holy Cross was kind of a family thing. My father graduated with the first ever class – and all of my cousins and my brother also went there. Additionally – my uncle was the principal. So it was definitely a school that was/still is close the my family’s heart
- At the ripe age of 14 – I somehow found reason to have a fresh start. I think a lot of this related to my size – I matured way earlier then my classmates – was always a bigger kid.. and kind of made a name for myself as a tom-boy. That was not really who I was turning into though. I actually liked girly stuff – and I felt I needed a new environment to accomplish this (I am not sure why I felt this way – but hey.. it is what it is and I am glad I went to HC)
There were about 200 kids in my class – we had a dress code – all the normal deals of a catholic or private high school.. (it was not an all girls school though).
So – now that you have a little bit a background.. let us take a trip down memory lane:
Junior Year (2002-2003)
Ahh! Upperclassman. Felt like I had some control in the school (wait seriously.. did I just say that.. umm yes I did – but hey.. it was how I felt).
You know what they say about junior year – how important it is to really get your shit in order for college – so you can go somewhere you want to go. Of course.. this held true for me too. As a perfectionist, I hankered down in my courses and excelled. I think junior year was my FAVORITE year of high school.
I loved my role on both the soccer and basketball team. We would do lots of extra stuff outside of playing games and practicing. We were really team oriented.. and it was a lot of fun. I was feeling more fit then ever.. and still wasn’t really concerned with my body… just the normal stuff that any teenage girl experiences.. but nothing crazy (like in the years to come)
I also became REALLY close with my three best friends. We would spend a lot of time together since we were all driving. I guess I was really.. growing up.
Senior Year (2003-2004)
Clearly..as a senior in high school.. I thought I knew everthing.. but in the whole schema of things.. I knew nothing… well okay..not nothing.. but not nearly as much as I thought I did.
It makes me laugh when I talk with now-seniors in high school.. because they don’t realize how much there is beyond the walls of their school (I am not speaking for every single senior.. just from my experiences.. so don’t be offended if you are a senior in HS).
The start of my senior year.. was awesome. I was checking out colleges..with opportunities to play soccer.. having a blast with my friends.. celebrating my 18th birthday… senior day in soccer…really just enjoying the final year of being together with my high school class.
It didn’t stay this way though. My body problems spiked during my senior year.. and everything was a rollercoaster.. emotionally and physically. I was involved in a very damaging relationship.. where my confidence went from high.. to lower then low. I had little respect for my body…for my actions.. my family and friends.. basically for my life as a whole.
I hate to place blame anywhere.. but I truly believe that all of these issues stemmed from this one demeaning and controlling relationship. I had such negative views at everything that was going on in my life – was made to believe I had psychological problems.. and truly damaged the relationship with both my friends and family (thank GOODNESS those were repaired). My grades slipped in many of my courses (SO not like me) because I was missing school from being so depressed and anxious.. and had little ability to concentrate.
I was so stressed throughout the second half of my senior year – that there are honestly things I have ZERO recollection of (i.e. – winning MVP for my basketball team.. I seriously saw the trophy when I was in college..and asked my mom if she had it made for me or something since I had such a tough year.. nope.. apparently I won it).
You may notice that my weight in these pictures varies drastically.. and that is because.. it is what was happening.. I was on a binge/starvation cycle.. with some purging thrown into the loop as well.
It may not have been the best of times.. but you know what.. I got through it. I am a stronger person for going through it. I learned SO many valuable lessons from these experiences as well.
What was high school like for you? Did you learn from your experiences?
Don’t worry.. I’ll let you in on the rest of HS. Another day.. 🙂